I can't sleep- no, I don't want to sleep. I want to go somewhere I've never been to before. I want to be lost. I want to be wrapped in darkness, yet in light. I want music pulsing in my veins. I to be floating in a sea of people. I want to be unknown.
Maybe it’s because whenever I look into her eyes, I see a thousand lives we could have, a million dreams that I wish are real and…
And I like her a lot. Friends. Blah. I don’t want to be friends. Well. I don’t know. I just. I see a lot in her, I see so much possibility and so much love and so much happiness. I want to be under the sky of her eyes, the pink colour of her skin. I want to know her better, I want to like her, I want to know her the way people who are really interested in each other know each other.
I’m babbling. I’m happy. I’m not happy. I want to be happy. I want her happiness to happen with me.
I look away from her eyes though. I’m afraid sometimes. But… A good fear. The one you remember with a funny smile that makes you wonder why you’re afraid and you wish you weren’t. I enjoy her.